Ember G Writes

Well hello everybody, I hope you are doing good! This blog won’t be as deep as the title seems so don’t you worry! What Is Imposter Syndrome you ask? Well you will find out!

Imposter syndrome is basically an internal experience (or in my case over thinking as per usual) of believing that you are not as capable as others think you are. Its usually linked to intelligence and achievement but also perfectionism and in a more social way to.

I don’t know about you, but as soon as I was legally deemed an “adult” I have just felt like a complete imposter. Adult is not technically a label but I feel like I really, completely and utterly do not belong in the category! No matter my age!

Yes this blog post is a rather random one, it was just a thought I had and well, I think it sums up how I am currently feeling perfectly. When you think of an adult, you see responsibility, a role model, maybe working, a parent, someone in a commited relationship etc. You think of an adult having everything together, or a real grown up who is wise and knowledgeable.

Clearly, I am definitely not any of those things. I am responsible but thats about it really. Growing up is weird, I feel like you never really feel like you have grown up. Sometimes I wonder if the kids I work with see me how I see someone older than me? You know, like if they think, whoa… a real grown up adult. I know its weird ok, but I do wonder.

Surely I am not the only one feeling like this or has ever felt like this? I don’t know what I am going to do with my life, or who I’ll be friends with in the future. I do feel like I’m a fraud and not really doing anything worthwhile. Funny how a simple post on social media can make your thoughts spiral and send you into a comparison overload!

Yes, this blog post is in connection to me seeing something online. As I have mentioned I have the tendency to, overthink a lot, as I am writing this it is nearly 2am! The post I saw was not a negative thing at all, it was a really happy, positive, amazing thing that has just happened to someone I used to know.

I’m saying used to because I haven’t spoken to them properly in maybe 8 years or so. Its a very exciting new chapter for them! This blog isn’t to stomp all over that just to be clear! Its more of a realisation I guess? A realisation that I’m actually growing up and am an adult. I guess that’s what freaked me out the most, I’ve already reached adulthood, but I haven’t got an adult lifestyle? If that makes sense!

It is a little bit mind blowing that these amazing, exciting things are happening to people my age! I hope someone understands or relates to this post! I feel like I sound a little bit crazy!

Stay safe everyone! Thankyou for the support!

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