Ember G Writes

Hello readers! I know the updates have pretty much disappeared and I am so sorry. I feel like pretty much every blog post I apologise for the lack of updates. It is currently nearly 1am when I am writing this…

I have been incredibly busy for the past few weeks. I had been helping plan a youth weekend away and it was truly hectic. The weekend went incredibly well and lots of things happened!

I will do an indepth post about that soon! I also literally just came back from the kids weekend away. I didn’t help plan that one, I just came along to help out on the weekend. Again, I will do a separate post about the weekend just gone.

I’ve been pretty tired, since the youth and kids weekends away where back to back, but I just feel like I’ve got to the point of constantly being/feeling exhausted. In a few weeks there will be another weekend away, which I’ll probably be helping to plan at some point this week.

Not going to lie, I am beginning to struggle. I just feel so tired and I’m pretty much always busy. I don’t think people really understand how much work I am actually doing. Since there is no longer a main kids worker, it has kind of inevitably fallen to me. Not so much all of it, but a fair few things. I’m not doing it all please understand!

In all honesty, I feel kind of forgotten about? Not just in what I do everyday but in other things. My family are super busy with work, which I can understand, I also know they are always there for me but my “friends”… well I haven’t heard from them. It always seems to be me putting in the effort, I get it they have uni and relationships to maintain, family and everything else.

But it would be nice if they could be the ones asking to do a face time or for them to say “Hey I’ll come visit you!”. They might be students, but they are definitely in a more financially ok place to visit, I mean they have a student loan! They also definitely have more free time then I do…

Ok I know that isn’t necessarily true of course, I just wish they would at least try? It might be me just feeling lonely, might be the tiredness or even the slow-quiet-hectic-chaotic-stress that has been stewing and boiling in the past month, which is probably spilling over at the minute…

I could go home, but even then… they wouldn’t take time out to see me, if they did I’d probably have to work it around them… as usual.

As I have mentioned many times before, this blog is my safe space, to write out my thoughts and feelings. A space to document things that are going on in my life, whether it be good or bad.

Sometimes it’s easier to write to a bunch of strangers around the world, then to bring it up to people who are close to you, especially when they don’t actually want to sincerely know what is happening.

Sorry for the slightly depressing blog, but I do feel a bit better now I’ve typed my thoughts out.

Stay safe and thankyou for reading

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