Ember G Writes

Hey everybody. I hope you are doing well, I know this blog has been not active and I am going to try my best to write. It might be a bit of a heavy one today, I’ll be talking about mental health and spiritual battles so you might want to skip this one, I hope that this helps someone in some way.

In all honesty I have been really struggling mentally. I have depression and have had it for around 6 or so years. Recently it was getting back to how it used to be, when I was in a really bad place. I decided to do something about it. I spoke to my support system, I broke down in tears one day and it all came out in one big wave.

I thankfully have an incredible group of people around me to listen and support, without breathing down my neck! I spoke to doctors and reached out to someone for councilling again. I feel like this past week was quite difficult, I cried a lot and felt really awful. Today I am feeling a lot better, not fully but better.

This week most things went wrong for me. I woke up depressed which, since getting help, I haven’t felt until this week. My back also started hurting and being bad again which again, hasn’t happened in at least a year. I tried to write a talk and I struggled to focus, write, plan and be positive. So that is how I knew something was going on.

I was at a Christian festival thing over Easter, called Spring Harvest. A lot of good things happened that week and I made it until day four before I cried in exhaustion! Now if you are a Christian reading this, you might see where I am going with this! If you aren’t don’t worry about it! As a Christian I believe that when God is working, the devil comes to play. He comes and discourage us, places obsticles in the way and gets into our heads, filling it with negativity and lies.

In short, I have deffinately upset mr nasty! He hates it when God starts to move. On the last morning of Spring Harvest, we discovered someone came into the venue that I was working in. I was one of a whole team of people. This random person had come in the night before and stole random things, hid them in strange places and then left a note mocking us.

That was deffinately an attack from mr nasty. So many amazing things had been happening in that venue and the devil hated it! So, because of all the wonderful things that had been happening, as well as all the amazing things that happened last term on the weekends away, and giving out so much time and energy to the youth and kids… it was to be expected that mr nasty would ruin things, or well try to.

I have deffinately been under spiritual attack this week. I’m not the only one who has been feeling it, someone else I know has been experiencing similar things these past two weeks but again, kind of expected it. Yesterday I was sat on the floor of my housemates bedroom, crying my eyes out. She didn’t say anything, just sat with me which was nice… she also ordered us McDonalds, which I ate while having a bubble bath… then I took a nap!

This week is going to be interesting, I am worried about the youth sessions this week. The main youth worker is on holiday which means… I am leading both sessions on my own. I need to figure all the boring admin stuff out this week… Please be praying for me this week!

Bit of a random blog today! I’ll try to get the blogs of all three weekends away up and start on a blog about Spring Harvest! I also have another special blog post in mind about a project I was apart of… I may have to check I can write about it first though! Thanks for reading, stay safe!

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