Ember G Writes

Hello everybody! I hope you have had a great day today!

Last night I did not sleep, at all. At 5am I was looking out of the window into the garden the birds where singing and the sun was rising. I eventually fell asleep at 9am. Hopefully tonight I will sleep really well, all the way through and wake up rested, and refreshed.

It’s been really nice weather today, the sun makes everything better, including my mental state. I’m sure its the same for a lot of you! Today I was rather productive, I cleaned up among other more productive things which is deffinately an achievement, especially for me!

Safe to say I feel a lot better mentally then I have been recently. As I have mentioned a few times on here, I really enjoy writing. I enjoy being able to create a picture with words, being creative and just releasing my inner thoughts into something I can see. Over the first lockdowns I wrote a few books to pass the time. I would push myself to get more books or ideas written down, it was great at first, then it became a bit of a chore.

I don’t want to see writing like that, its like resenting getting therapy, well at least it is for me. We had a session about writing last week, it was exactly what I needed. It sparked the want to write again within me. So today, I wrote all my ideas down. I have far to many colour coded mind maps all over my bedroom floor now!

In short, I am going to try writing something fictional again. I’m not going to rush it, I’m just going to see where my imagination takes me. I might be saying this today but who knows, tommorrow might be a different story. I hate that I think like this, it’s like I expect something negative, no matter how positive and productive a day has been.

It’s quite scary how, one day I could be bawling my eyes out in the shower because I just don’t see the point anymore and then the next day, feeling on top of the world, being crazy productive and motivated. I wonder what this week will bring? Will I remain in a decent head space or will I go back into the slump?

I am getting help just so you know, I also want to say I am not meaning to worry or scare you! Its just me getting my thoughts out, freeing up space in my head for more positive, important things! Not that my mental health isn’t important of course.

Anyway, I think I’ll end this blog here for now. Stay safe everyone!

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