Ember G Writes

Hello everybody! I hope you are having a good day. How are you doing? What is the weather like where you are reading this from?

Today it is my last official Friday youth session. We are having a summer party but in true British weather, we are most probably going to be celebrating in the rain! Today is going to be filled with lots of prep and mundane, easy things. By easy I mean it won’t require a lot of brain power but it will be quite tedious and not a lot of fun.

I honestly am not sure on how I feel or should be feeling considering it is the end of the year. I haven’t really felt, or have been, super emotional. I feel as though I am still not really finished, I mean I haven’t completely finished considering I have a Sunday and a youth camp left to do. I am just really tired, but I always am so nothing different there!

Maybe I will feel it tonight? I don’t cry easily, even though I have certainly cried a lot over this year. I think those crying moments, were more of an emotional and healing release. I don’t want to force myself to cry/be emotional, just because other people are… but I do wonder, is it wrong that I don’t really feel much about the end of the year?

I feel quite ok and content about the end of this gap year. Sometimes I do have a slight moment of panic, over the fact its nearly at an end. The way I am feeling will probably change in a few days, or hours. As of right now, this very second though, I feel ok.

I really hate the Friday mornings, I can’t really get myself to be productive until about half 12 ish. There is an hour were I just procrastinate and wonder what there is to do, when I know full well I have an entire list to be getting on with! I wish I was a motivated human, but I am really not!

This blog is a really random one… not sure where I went with this one, so I think I’ll leave it here. Thanks for reading, stay safe!

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