Ember G Writes

Hi everybody, how are you today? Are you doing anything nice this week? How is the weather? Let me know.

So, I hate to break it to you guys but I guess my blog is probably going to be filled with a lot of what is next? What am I doing with my life? For the next couple months (like the very start of this blog!) Some of you probably found my rants and mental breakdowns quite entertaining, others probably didn’t.

I’ve arrived at the floating stage once again. I have no idea where to turn, what to do and how to get started. It seems like I have one direction to really go towards and that is job hunting. I have filled out a few applications out, but so far, they have all been declined. I know what kind of thing I would like to do but I honestly don’t know if I have enough experience in that sector.

There is also the annoying factors of gades and qualifications. Frankly, I don’t think they are good enough for employers. Don’t get me wrong, I am still going to try for different things, I’m not just going to sit and do nothing. I have found it quite difficult really, not being busy or doing anything for the past few weeks. I also feel like I haven’t had a real break yet, I’m still pretty wound up from the summer camp.

Unfortunately, just as I am having my summer, people I know are either heading back to Uni or work or are back in a different city. I guess I just feel back to being lost? It isn’t a fun feeling! Especially when I have had a full year of different experiences and new friends, which have been a part of that unique experience.

I really don’t like not knowing where to turn or what to do but I also seem to find myself trapped in the mindset of not knowing where to start, it then gets to overwhellming for me and I freeze up! It is a bit of a riduculous mindset and I am working through all that, I guess I feel a bit calmer this time round because I know there is options.

Mental health is a weird one. I know I am feeling like this and thinking like this because of my mental health. It is all just in my head and I think this past year has really helped me see and realise, how capable I am. The past year has taught me a lot about myself, my strengths, how I work and what I enjoy doing. I have more of an idea of what career path I would like to go into.

That might be for now or in the future. I know it’s something I have enjoyed a lot and the phrase hasn’t left my heart or mind in months! Everytime I think of it I feel even more drawn to it. It is interesting how God puts things on our hearts! If this was a few years ago I would’ve dismissed the thought quite quickly.

There has been a few times were I have really wanted to do something, like being a dancer, being an author, being a fashion designer (back in the day) a vet, a weather reporter etc. Of course a few of those things I would still LOVE to do but, realistically I know that the thing I am currently really passionate about, makes the most sense. I’ve chosen not to put what I want to go into on here just because I want to see how long this rests on my heart. I want to make sure it is right and not just a passing fancy!

Overall I do feel a bit more optimistic, positive and calm about this time of limbo! I know it is only temporary, I know there are options, even with feeling a little lost at the moment.

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