Ember G Writes

Hello readers! How are you doing? How has your week been? I thought it would be fun to document my 21st year that is shortly (in a matter of days) going to be over…

I WILL BE TALKING ABOUT MY FAITH IN THIS POST. PLEASE BE RESPECTFUL. ANY RUDE COMMENTS TOWARD MYSELF OR ANOTHER READER WILL BE DELETED & YOU WILL BE BLOCKED. THANKYOU.

I have reached the age that people can only ever be able to use, Taylor Swifts’ 22, ironically for my birthday. Yes, I turn 22 and I honestly keep forgetting that it is in fact, a few days away. So, I guess I’ll reflect on my last year of life and, what I hope to achieve as I move into my 22nd year.

The past year has been a year of growth. Unfortunately not in height, but within myself. I feel like I have learnt how capabable I actually am, I have matured in myself. Don’t get me wrong, I still have no idea what I am doing with my life, and I am still very much so, trying to figure that out!

I know I have changed a lot through the year and I guess looking back (which I do a lot) I can see where I have changed. I react differently, I think more deeply, I have let go of things that have been holding me back and I have healed. I think this past year, especially at Riverside has really helped me, my faith has deepened and I have made friends for life.

My life five years back was pretty hard. My mental health was in a majorly bad place, I was in the midst of exams, I’d just lost a parent and I just left a toxic environment, which I don’t want to talk about on here. I was such an angry person, I hated church, hated God and I just wanted to forget. At 21 I feel like I started to really work through those things, I healed from hurt and obviously I am still in the process of working through it.

21 has definately been a year of friendship, memories and unexpected experiences. I have learnt a lot, not only about myself but my faith, the Bible and how to be a youth and childrens worker (even if… I was mainly assisting) It has been a bit of an unusual year to say the least, not many people get to have a gap year like mine!

What is next for me?

In short, I have no idea. Obviously I have been job hunting so maybe 22 will be the year of employment? Maybe I’ll move back to where I was last year (at least I would like to so) My last birthday wasn’t exactly something I was super excited about, this year it seems to be the same. I guess that the older you get, the less exciting it is? It’s quite sad that the childlike excitement slowly disappears.

As I come into my 22nd year, I would like to get a deeper knowledge of my faith. I want to deepen my relationship with God, I want to learn more about him. I do kind of want to look into a Theology course, I might be a little crazy though! I want to continue to make progress with my mental health and to continue working through things.

I want to travel more than I have done, that does however come down to if I get a job or not though. I guess my ultimate goal this year is to get a job and with my first paycheck, treat my family to a meal out. I know that might seem silly to a few of you, but I genuinely really want to be able to do that… does that make sense?

See you 21, you were good…