Ember G Writes

Hey everybody, sorry for the lack of blogs the past few weeks! I am trying to get back into blogging regularly again.

How are you? Like really, not on the surface but how you actually are. We are always so quick to just brush the question off with a mediocre and often unconvincing “I’m fine” when you probably aren’t just fine. Let me know, my DMs are always open…

Recently it feels as though things have been falling into place in my life, I have a new therapist and regular sessions have been organised, I have sorted my doctors out (finally) and I can now officially say I have a job.

After months of waiting and applying, I have finally got a job! I got the call last Thursday. I start next Monday which is great for me, as you know I overthink a lot and stress myself out, so having a week to sort of, gather my thoughts and process everything is hugely helpful!

I am also able to gain a qualification alongside working, which I am happy about because I enjoy learning (I know it’s weird). I’ve only completed the first module so far. I was doing the second module when I got the call about my long term placement, safe to say after that I was way to excited to continue!

I’m so thankful I have something to do with my time, something that is fulfilling and I can’t wait to be useful again! Sitting around watching videos, shows, movies and audiobooks all the time kind of takes the fun out of those things.

I don’t really think I have fully processed the job yet, it hasn’t sunk in. I may have a mid-week-panic and flap before hand, but as of right now… I am feeling pretty okay about the news.

This weekend I’ll be heading back to Riverside (where I had my gap year) to help at the kids weekend away. It should be good fun and I have a few friends going along to help to which is nice.

I’ll be having a billionth sleepover with one of my friends from last year. Most of last year I stayed at this particular friends house, I slept on the floor in her bedroom for four days… no joke…

It’ll be weird to be back in the environment of Riverside again, since I am literally only helping out when last year I was so much more involved. I don’t mind though!

I’ll hopefully have a lot to blog about, now I have more interesting content at hand, that isn’t about job searching!

As I have mentioned a few times in previous blog posts, I have been making changes and improvements. I recently got a sleep journal, more so I can have a clear routine before bed. So far it is helping me but I don’t know how long I’ll keep it up for…

Recently it has been so rare for me to feel like I am in a good place, especially mentally – but for the past few days, I have felt really good. It makes a change. I think the new habits and changes I have made has really been helping me get/feel better.

It is currently 10:30pm as I write this, I’m hunched over my laptop on my bed and my back is starting to hurt. I’m taking that as a sign to get some rest, or maybe old age? I can already hear my mother snoring next door, she had a busy day I guess…

Thankyou for your support, your prayers and for reading this post. I’ll be back soon…