Ember G Writes

Hi if there are any readers of this blog left…

My last post on here was back in March, it is now July when I am writing this.

I guess you could say life has been pretty hectic and intense for me. Between bridal party planning to working here there and everywhere!

I’m coming to here since I just have to many thoughts going on in my head. My thoughts are spiralling out of control, spilling out into the abyss and I can’t seem to stop it.

Part of this overflow of thoughts has been brought on by what I think is, my lack of therapy sessions over the past couple months. I’m coming to realise how much I need these sessions, to order my thoughts and empty my brain. I feel exhausted because I feel like I haven’t got the space to just empty my mind.

Even as I write this I have such an urge to just throw my laptop across the room and scream until its dark. Obviously I am not about to do that, I haven’t exactly got the money to buy a new laptop.

I guess what I should really do is just let go. Let go of my frustration, my irritation, my anger, negativity and just all my emotions. It’s pointless trying to control them, besides controlling them is hard work.

There is a lot of things I need to let go of. From past situations, current circumstances and all the anxieties of what is to come.

There are some people in my life who I just need to let go of since it is only making me feel worse about myself.

I find myself asking what the point is? I don’t know what exactly it is I mean by that. There are many “What is the point?” situations going on in my life currently.

The truth is I am struggling.

I can’t seem to just let things go. Its a vicious cycle, I know it is doing me no good holding on to things but at the same time, my grip only tightens when I try to let go.