Ember G Writes

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Honestly I am still surprised that people across the world even read this blog! It has been difficult to keep this going & it is only a single post a week. Those who post most days are incredible, I wonder how they do it!

I suppose I find it hard because I have rather poor time management skills (in some not all things). A few examples other than writing, would be getting up in the mornings & trying to get to work before 8am (or 8am at the latest). I tend to think I have much more time then I actually do, anyone else?

Since I was a Kid, procrastination was an issue for me. I would get all up in my head, stressing over how much I had to do when it was truly a very small amount of things. I mean, tidying a handful of Polly Pockets into a box is a 2 minute job. To me however, it felt like an absolute boot-camp!

Writing a blog post may take me around 40 minutes at most, with editing & scheduling. I usually write my posts a week in advance, so I am not panicking & stressing because of my poor time management ,with this very blog.

Now getting up from bed & getting ready to get downstairs to eat takes me far longer then it really should. Then I regret spending all that time faffing about & getting on public transport all stressed. Showing up to an 8 hour work day stressed & sweating from rushing, is not as cute as you would think.

Before I started to write this evening (for me), I was planning out this week. Writing it out in my planning diary, adding the times to do certain jobs or times I needed to leave, appointments – that kind of thing.

When I realised something rather important, my mum will be coming home from holiday in three days time. I have enough food for myself but no food for another human. You see, I have been home alone for the past three weeks. I’ve certainly had more than enough time to prepare for her return from the other side of the world.

In a panic, I called my sister. I was telling her my current predicament &, of course, she had a calm demeanor & even a solution. We discussed about how quickly the past few weeks have been & how it hasn’t felt like any time at all. I suppose, it has kind of shocked me into a realisation of how quickly we can be swept up in every day life.

We forget to stop & process things, for example, we have already been in an entire new year for a whole month. How has that happened? How quickly have we been swept back into the everyday? How am I already stressed & worrying?

The past two days for me have been a complete ‘spring clean‘ even though it isn’t spring yet. I have cleaned the house from top to bottom, making sure to have it clean & tidy for when my mum comes home. It was only when the cleaning was done did I stop. I realised there was a list of more things to do.

I felt so overwhelmed & it seems to happen a lot to me. Through all of the times of feeling overwhelmed, I have learnt to stick at things. As I have touched on a few times, my teenage years were not the easiest & I went through things that not many teenagers can say they have been through.

People would say that because of the things I went through, it ‘matured you quicker‘ than most of my peers at that time. To a certain point I agree however, I would say it was more about the circumstances making me learn a vital skill, to be resilient. It was a really rough way to learn that skill though.

My point is, with all the stuff going on around me & personally really wanting to just give in to being overwhelmed, to the point it paralyses me, I have learnt a better way of coping. I sit down, stopping to just be still & quiet, taking a deep breath.

Only when I have calmed myself down can I tackle all the things that have been stressing me out. Life can be stressful, even completely exhausting & that is Ok. To allow it to drown you however, is not the way to deal with things, it makes it worse trust me. Be resilient, but not to the point you hide. It is more than Ok to seek help & support.

You are not built to cope alone, God did not make you like that.

Give it to Him.

He can handle it.